G20 Summit in Pittsburgh

I was in Pittsburgh, PA the weekend before the infamous G20 Summit. Curiously though, I had not heard about this Summit until visiting Pittsburgh and being made aware of it through a security guard at the Andy Warhol museum wanting to look inside my purse. I saw the city prepare for the Summit and the great lenghts it went through, to ensure the safety of the diplomats attending this all important Summit. After the Summit I started hearing about the vast amount of people that demonstrated in the streets peacefully. Let us consider this. We common citizens, of all color, race, and nationality, were able to march in a peacefull manner in one city, in close proximity. Why can not we solve our other issues this way. Perhaps if we cut the government out of the picture and allow us, the taxpaying citizens to decide on most matter that are important, maybe, just maybe we might solve some issues that those ever important diplomats could not. Food for thought. I enclosed a link to a youtube video so you may watch the melding of cultures who got along. Imagine that.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hsy_u1pJBlA

My living will...

I, Monika, being of sound mind and body, do not wish to be kept alive indefinitely by artificial means.

Under no circumstances should my fate be put in the hands of pinhead politicians who couldn't pass ninth grade biology if their lives depended on it, or doctors interested in simply running up the bills.

If a reasonable amount of time passes and I fail to ask for at least one of the following:

Chocolate
Sex
Glass of wine
Sex
Chocolate
Sex
Sushi
Sex
Perfect Margarita
Sex
Chocolate
Sex
Coffee with Bailey's
Sex
Chinese Food
Sex
Chocolate
Sex
Mexican food
Sex
Chocolate
Sex
Ice cream
Sex
Raspberries
Sex
Chocolate
A big salad
Sex
Chocolate
Sex,

It should be presumed that I won't ever get better. When such a determination is reached, I hereby instruct my appointed person and attending physicians to pull the plug, reel in the tubes, let the 'fat lady sing,' and call it a day!

If this happens at the same time I have shrunk down to a size 6, even better. Please refrain from pulling the plug until I can wear couture into eternity.

*I actually borrowed the idea of this blog from a blog I read on a daily basis, and thought it was a super idea.*

Long time...

It has been a long time since I have written on my blog, Im sure you all have noticed this.
I mean to write all the time, I just get boggled up for one reason or another. Honestly, after my boyfriend C informed me that anyone can find my blog, I am really hesitant to write my true feelings.
I came across an opportunity. I heard about an administrative assistants position available in the town I currently live in. I commute 30 miles a day now, each way, from the town I used to live in but no longer do. Since C and I bought a home together. I would love to work in a different position and different environment and get away from the people I currently work with. My problem is that if I do get this position (which is a very long shot-knowing there are more qualified people out there and everyone is looking for a job), I will be bound to the town. What if things do not work out with C and I have to move back to my previous hometown, I am stuck in the same position that I am now, but maybe with a happier job. There are other things to consider as well. Both my children attend schools in our previous towns. How will I get them there everyday and get them back?? I have no help in the transportation department. I dont know. I think I will fill out the application just the same and see if I even get an interview. If anyone has any thoughts, please share them with me. And for crying out loud do not tell me that if I am worried about C and I working out I shouldnt be there in the first place. I learned the hard way, that no matter how hard I work at a relationship or how much I love my spouce, it takes two to make things work. So, on that note, any suggestions??

Is it wrong?

Is it wrong to sit at my desk and daydream about the day that my financial woes wont be so stressfull?
Is it wrong to try and hurry your life so you can get through law school and become the attorney you always wanted to be not only for financial reasons but for personal reasons?
Is it wrong to envy people who have no financial worries?
In retrospect I realize that with a greater income, comes greater expenses. So really, do I want a higher income? YES. Didnt even have to think about that one.
I want to be able to log into my checking acocunt and see some extra money just sitting there collecting dust, and being able to pay for my root canal if need be, and not have to make payments on the stupid thing. I have been supporting myself since I was 16 years old. Rent, car, ins, utilities, all of it. I just feel so drained and tired. I realize that this is called life and I should just suck it up and move on along. Which I guess I will do, with the promise to myself that once I do get that nice salary, I will stockpile it in savings and wont let anything or anyone near it. I need a piece of mind.

Urgh...

Today is root canal, post and crown day. WHINE...WHINE....WHiiiiinnnnneee. I dont wanto to go. Dont make me goooo....whimper.

Covet...

I covet a different life.
I dont want to work anymore. LOL. Ok, I know as you are reading this, you are too saying, yeah-ha join the club.
I wish there was a job I could do from home. Not full time from home, but...hold on, flower delivery is here at work, could it be for me...lets wait and see. Oooh he is getting out of the van and taking out a beautiful arrangement, walking in, DANG IT, not for me. Oh well. Back to my story. Ok not full time from home because my partner and I would probably get on each others nerves. Maybe something I can do outside but from home. Dont know what....

Scarface...

Yep, just call me scarface. Im goint to have a scar on my face under my bottom lip to remind me of my mishap with the prybar. How lucky am I??

Winner of the "Dumbass" award...

I officially award myself with the "Dumbass" award. Why?, you may ask, well I will tell you. This past weekend, memorial day weekend, my partner and I had plans to take our deck apart, the one leading off of the master bedroom. It was going smoothly on saturday. Sunday, dawned rainy and blugh. I did not get to help much on Sunday, most of the items that needed to be done were a one man task. I whined, why can't I help?? whine whine whine.... Finally I got to help. Yeay me. Here is the prybar he said, take it and pry off this one long board. Ha ha, I can do this. I pried and pried and it wouldn't budge. One more really hard pry and I know I can get it. Well guess what? The pry bar came back with all the force I put into it and poppled me in the mouth. OUCH!!!!!! My partner took me insise the house after taking the pry bar out of my hand, and led me to the bathroom, where I proceeded to spit blood and teeth bits into the sink. Hrm, not good. After the shock wore off, the pain and reality set in. The skin on the outside of my lip was split, but I refused to go to the emergency room. No way am I paying that co pay. So I put ice on it untill I could assess the damage further. So I had one loose tooth on the bottom and broke one on the top completely in half, and thats what I was spitting out. F***!!!
I took pain killers ever 4-6 hours till I could get to the dentist yesterday. Dr. D made his assesment. I had two loose teeth on the bottom but were already firming up, or back in or whatever. So the one I broke on the top. He asked me, have you been taking something on a regular basis? Well yes, I have. That would by why you are not feeling the exposed nerve thingie or whatever it is. Hrm well I guess yes that would be why. So, we have to do a root canal, post and crown. F*** Me!!! Oh and he cant do it for a few days because my mouth is so raw it would be extremely painful to try to numb me. Hrm. So for the next two weeks I am living on soft foods and ibuprofen all because I was a whiny but. Gggrrrrrr......
So how was your weekend??

Long weekend...

With Memorial Day coming up on Monday, I have a three day weekend ahead of me.
I am so exicted about this. Not that I will get to sleep a few extra minutes each morning but excited to be at home with my family. With my boys, my partner and his children for three whole days. Wow. I am also looking forward to "fixing" our deck off of the master bedroom. It is only accesible through the master bedroom now, which is silly. I want to be able to step down into the back yard, which would only be a couple of steps. Should be a great project that will exercise muscles I have forgotten about. I am also looking forward to making home made cinnamon rolls and grilling hamburgers and ribs. It should be a nice weekend. I might even take a before and after photo of the deck and post it.

The deer in our backyard are eating my Hosta plants. I love deer and I think they should be protected, but not if they are going to devour my plants. Its not just my Hosta plants its other plants as well in my garden. It is not very nice of them to do that. My partner did purchase a bag of this fertalizer (forgot what it was called) and put it out last night and voila! the deer did not eat any more Hosta plants. It could be something as simple as the fertilizer working or that maybe they went and dined on some one elses Hostas last night. We will see.

Have a great weekend all!!

Pause...

Life seems to be passing by me at a very high speed. Don't get me wrong, I am in it, its just all going too fast. By the time I get home from work, cook dinner, eat, clean the dishes and the messy kitchen, go for a quick walk, its time to go to bed. I get up at 5:30 as it is, so I can not get up any earlier to put extra time in my day. Why does it go by so fast. I wish I could just push pause. Pause here so I can sit down for a moment and take a long breath. Pause here so I can hug my oldest son one more time today and tell him he is great. Pause yet again so I can help my youngest son unpack some of his boxes from our move. Pause here so I can listen to GG and Jxs ramble on and on about things. Pause here so I can actually hug and kiss my boyfriend today. Pause here so I can read a few pages before falling asleep. Those are lots and lots of pauses. Unfortunately I can not pause and have to make the best of the time I do have.
What do you wish you could push pause for??